I wanted to blog about death the other day, but got too tired when I got home. Yes, I suddenly thought about death over lunch the other day while I was eating alone. It was quite an eleborate ‘chat’ with myself..even had tears welled up my eyes as I thought about the things I want to do before I die and regrets.

The week was alright, passed sooner and easier than I thought. I went for the wedding dinner of my new colleague on Friday. Then it was Starbucks work on Saturday morning. Been working two Saturdays mornings straight, which means my weekends got shorter.

I watched ‘The Nanny Diaries’ just now, starring Scarlett Johansson. I really liked it actually. I don’t consider it as a flick..it’s a really heartwarming film, I actually cried after watching it.

It’s back to work tomorrow. It’s raining heavily now. The make-do scoccer/cricket field downstairs is almost a swimming pool already. I have been thinking about this for a while..what happens to all the insects like ants when the field floods? I am pretty sure they don’t die.

I cut my hair, it’s too cutesy looking for my liking. Most of my friends liked it..but I look 10 years younger. I already look 15, don’t need that extra youth.

I was watching ‘Forgetting Sarah Marshall’ and they mentioned the state fish of Hawaii. I thought it was a joke..but no, there’s really a state fish, the Reef Triggerfish called:

Humuhumunuku-nukuapua ‘a (in Hawaiian)
pronounced as: hoomoo-hoomoo-nookoo-nookoo-a-poo-a-a

It’s Deevapali holday today, my first long weekend since I started working and yes indeed, it is awesome.

My blog was down for a couple of days because I didn’t pay my hosting fees. My host kept sending me email and the way they put it (I refuse to admit I am stupid or ignorant), it seem like they already automatically deducted it from my debit card.

Work on Friday at Starbucks was truely, truely exhausting. I never ever felt so tired with a constant migrate. I was mostly at the POS, and mostly feel like I am flowing in the air. I can barely keep my eyes open. But, it was still great working again..nothing beats working there.

I spent the last two days at home, I am sick..figured out I should stay at home and rest. I don’t think I want to fall asleep on my table tomorrow.

And I finally packed my room today. I don’t actually enjoy packing as much as everyone thinks but the feeling of a clean dust-free room gets me dancing inside. So unless I have a personal maid, I have to do the packing myself. Doesn’t everyone gets happier coming home to a neat room and sleeping on clean sheets?

I finally watch ‘Once‘ today, Wei lent the DVD to me. It was such a beautiful movie. It’s love story but yet not the typical lovey dovey romance movie. Like what it states, it’s a modern day musical. The story is so simple yet so genuine. The way it is filmed is so raw, nothing of that beautiful actors or people’s life nicely edited to portray a life you could never have? I don’t know if you get what I mean but you know how in film even if the characters are damn poor or struggling, movies are always in such a way it’s still more glamourous than you life you have? Well this film don’t. One of those film after you watch it, it feel real. Maybe because it’s shot in a documentary kind of style. And…such a perfect ending of the movie.

And of cos the soundtrack, the actors actually wrote those songs themselves. The songs reminds me of very Damien Rice and coincidentally, the story is based in Dublin, where Damien Rice is from.

I want to watch ‘Cashback’ next.

I have a whole list of things I want to get when I get my first paycheck. Maybe a good ol’ movie is a good start.

As saying goes, nothing is happier to sleep in on Saturdays.

Yes, I survived the first week of work and, finally sleep in! It was not that bad the waking up part, just more of when I was not given assignments to do and there’s no internet on my computer..those periods, I can barely keep my eyes open. I drink lots and lots of water and goes to the toilet way too often to keep myself awake.

But fear not, the lack of assignments wouldn’t be happening too much anymore because…I am officially hired!

Yes, the boss confirmed me yesterday. Actually the creative/art director spoke to me after lunch. He wrote down the figures (pay) on paper and asked if I am OK with it. I was shocked (and not in the good way), it was a very, very, very low pay..nothing like what the boss and I talked about earlier. If…if, I interpreted it correctly, it might go up after the probation period which God knows when..3 months or 6 months or NEVER. Notice the bold ‘if’. But I took the offer, at least I have a job, and it’s a first job so..well, I will just take it. My sister and mother was saying to just take it..at least I can find a job. And my mother told me over the phone about how people in Italy or Germany are queuing up to look for jobs..and of cos did all the motherly talk and lecturing.

So, that’s it..a first full-time real job. I am not really looking forward to it as much as I hope. There are days during the past week I dread sitting in front of the computer so much and can’t wait for 6.30pm. I do a little countdown every 5 minutes. It’s nothing like Starbucks, no where close to as fun…or if fun is ever a word to be used for a career/job. I already got my first assignment yesterday.

My sister always tells me how she wish to just quit her job and join Starbucks again. I always sympethise with her but I think I am finally getting it.

I am full of complains right? It’s only the first week!

When I was about to graduate from polytechnic, all the fears of a working life..now I am living it. No escape.

I am going to go out later, enjoy my well-deserved weekend. It’s the last weekend of this sort, if you get what I mean.

And oh, I watched ‘Eagle Eye’ yesterday! It’s a good movie, keep you very entertained every moment of it. Seem a little unreal that degree of cyber-terrorism but come to think of it, in no time, it can become real. And Shia LaBeouf is sooooo cute and charming! 

My next working is Wednesday. That would mean staying at home till Wednesday I think.

I don’t know..I used to go out everyday but somehow (or maybe I am subconsciously trying to get myself into that working lifestyle mode) the weekdays become stay home and only weekends are meant for going out.

Well, the job hunt hasn’t been going well. I am going to try looking in newspapers from tomorrow onwards.

Friday night was at Jon’s place for the VSC gathering which compromises of less than one quarter of the VSC ‘05 cohort as usual. Jon has the most amazing house I ever seen, it’s a real jungle, as it an actual jungle. I had never imagine a house could look like this..you will think you walked into a souvenir shop in Africa or something. It’s the coziest home I ever been to. I saw so many Martha Stewart house decorating tips happening there!

Today was television the whole day as usual. I was watching a Hong Kong TV series on cable. I just found out they have some free sample series to watch on cable. Woo! I managed to catch ‘Wall.E’ before it ends in cinema with JJ. Awww it’s so cuteee!

And go check out the new ipod nano, I am going to get it! Maybe next, next month since I am saving up for my next getaway trip.

I feel and suddenly felt now is a good time to be catching up with people.

It was father’s birthday yesterday but we celebrated it today.

My father don’t fancy big celebrations of expensive dinners or presents so it was just strawberry cheesecake and a cycling trip to the nearby fish farm and plant farm.

It was about time my Morning Glories seedlings get a new home.

I made that little device out of chopsticks. It looks like a nice little home for flowers or tomatoes.

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Everyone loves my phone because it looks so pretty. I want to love it too but it’s so lacky and difficult to use I feel like stomping on the phone and make sure none of that touch-screen is functioning.

I miss buttons. I can’t message while walking. I can’t message with one hand.

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I watched ‘Babel’ today. Awesome, awesome movie. It reminds me very much of ‘Crash’. One of those film reminding us how cruel, lonely and sometimes how aimless we are on planet earth. It makes me think about the world as whole, take a step back and see even if our own little world is perfect, the universe as a whole isn’t.

So many times I tell myself, if life is just about living for the sake of living and aimless at the end of this life, I rather don’t live it. There’s so much crazy shit so why bother to bear with it without a lesson at the end of it?

So life is without a purpose is..just not worth living.

Today is the day my job I interviewed for calls me..that is if I get the job. They said latest is Tuesday. It’s 5.50pm now and I haven’t been called so I suppose I won’t get it. I have been guarding the phone the whole day.

It’s very disappointing. I really wanted the job so badly, now it’s bad to the damn job hunting and waiting and it’s not fun at all.

I have a plant in my room to make me feel better. I planted some Morning Glory as well, in my living room pots. I hope they grow and grow so well they swallow the whole house with me in it and I will turn into a plant and never have to work.

I watched ‘The Illusionist’ just now and it’s a good movie, thoroughly enjoyed it. A very classy love story.

I spent the whole entire day today watching TV.

I woke up at 1.30pm, lunching while watching TV then I watched ‘Private Practice’ on TV the entire day and I watch ‘Captain Sky and the World of Tomorrow’ which I enjoyed thoroughly.

I actually don’t mind spending wasting (some call it) an entire Sunday (and probably only Sundays) watching TV. I had my chocolates and marshmellows with me. However, I think it’s always more fun to watch it with someone. I love movie/shows marathons with someone.

I actually feel like watching a movie tomorrow, I was thinking of watching it alone since I can’t seem to find someone to go with me but then the getting the ticket part is quite dreadful..

I want to do something tomorrow, I don’t feel like staying at home, maybe some fish shopping again.

Why? Why is everyone in NS?

I finally went to the doctor’s today after feel worst then ever this morning.

I was having a high fever that I did not know of and a throat infection. I think it was the throat infection that was causing the Panadol not to work since I felt much better after I take the medication for throat swelling.

However, the medication makes me nauseous.

And I watched ‘The Black Dahlia’ on TV just now. It was a good one, a rather dark movie I would say. It was quite complicating as there will be so many charactors that pops out of no where. One of those film you have to watch till the end and then go “Oh..like that ah” but then again you might not actually get it. I think I would be totally lost all the way till the end if my father wasn’t watching it with me.

Panic panic panic..work work work.