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This is truely the most heartbreaking photo I have ever seen. Quoting the photo caption directly:

“In this Nov. 6, 2008 file photo, young Protegee carries her niece, Response, as she looks for her parents in the village Kiwanja, 90 kms north of Goma, eastern Congo. When photographed on Nov. 6, Protegee was in a crowd of thousands in the town of Kiwanja, having walked for three days by herself after being separated from her mother as they fled on foot from her town about 12 miles (20 kilometers) away. Protegee finally found her mother, Esperance Nirakagori, in Kiwanja at a makeshift refugee camp six days after they were separated.”

It brings me to think about many things that are beyond our imagination or knowledge. Another side of the world that’s so dark and lonely we refuse to think about it.

On the lighter side of life, a cute little photo essay of a cotton tail bunny:

I am quite addicted to Issuu nowadays. It’s a site where users published their magazine/publication online. Alot of really great stuff there.

I wanted to blog about death the other day, but got too tired when I got home. Yes, I suddenly thought about death over lunch the other day while I was eating alone. It was quite an eleborate ‘chat’ with myself..even had tears welled up my eyes as I thought about the things I want to do before I die and regrets.

The week was alright, passed sooner and easier than I thought. I went for the wedding dinner of my new colleague on Friday. Then it was Starbucks work on Saturday morning. Been working two Saturdays mornings straight, which means my weekends got shorter.

I watched ‘The Nanny Diaries’ just now, starring Scarlett Johansson. I really liked it actually. I don’t consider it as a flick..it’s a really heartwarming film, I actually cried after watching it.

It’s back to work tomorrow. It’s raining heavily now. The make-do scoccer/cricket field downstairs is almost a swimming pool already. I have been thinking about this for a while..what happens to all the insects like ants when the field floods? I am pretty sure they don’t die.

I cut my hair, it’s too cutesy looking for my liking. Most of my friends liked it..but I look 10 years younger. I already look 15, don’t need that extra youth.

I was watching ‘Forgetting Sarah Marshall’ and they mentioned the state fish of Hawaii. I thought it was a joke..but no, there’s really a state fish, the Reef Triggerfish called:

Humuhumunuku-nukuapua ‘a (in Hawaiian)
pronounced as: hoomoo-hoomoo-nookoo-nookoo-a-poo-a-a

I finally got a project off my back (for a while) today. Been staying in the office till 9 plus, 10pm the last few days. I finally went home slightly earlier today at 7pm.

But but, another project is in and I got tons to do. I am looking at my going-out-Friday-night taken away from me…again.

It was thunderstorming and raining in the office today. I stared out at the window and like everyone else, wish I was at home sleeping and snuggling my blanket but noooo, I am stuck in a cold office. Weekends never really seem such a big deal while working at Starbucks cos..I still work on weekends, and it’s more fun to work on weekends. One of the best thing in the world is to be able to do your own thing while everyone else is stuck in a cubicle. Evil I know but that’s ok cos I am one of the miserable cubicle (ok I don’t exactly work in a cubicle) working person now.

I seriously, seriously (x1000) need to find something else to blog about other then work.

Do you like Early Grey tea? I don’t.

It’s Deevapali holday today, my first long weekend since I started working and yes indeed, it is awesome.

My blog was down for a couple of days because I didn’t pay my hosting fees. My host kept sending me email and the way they put it (I refuse to admit I am stupid or ignorant), it seem like they already automatically deducted it from my debit card.

Work on Friday at Starbucks was truely, truely exhausting. I never ever felt so tired with a constant migrate. I was mostly at the POS, and mostly feel like I am flowing in the air. I can barely keep my eyes open. But, it was still great working again..nothing beats working there.

I spent the last two days at home, I am sick..figured out I should stay at home and rest. I don’t think I want to fall asleep on my table tomorrow.

And I finally packed my room today. I don’t actually enjoy packing as much as everyone thinks but the feeling of a clean dust-free room gets me dancing inside. So unless I have a personal maid, I have to do the packing myself. Doesn’t everyone gets happier coming home to a neat room and sleeping on clean sheets?

I finally watch ‘Once‘ today, Wei lent the DVD to me. It was such a beautiful movie. It’s love story but yet not the typical lovey dovey romance movie. Like what it states, it’s a modern day musical. The story is so simple yet so genuine. The way it is filmed is so raw, nothing of that beautiful actors or people’s life nicely edited to portray a life you could never have? I don’t know if you get what I mean but you know how in film even if the characters are damn poor or struggling, movies are always in such a way it’s still more glamourous than you life you have? Well this film don’t. One of those film after you watch it, it feel real. Maybe because it’s shot in a documentary kind of style. And…such a perfect ending of the movie.

And of cos the soundtrack, the actors actually wrote those songs themselves. The songs reminds me of very Damien Rice and coincidentally, the story is based in Dublin, where Damien Rice is from.

I want to watch ‘Cashback’ next.

I have a whole list of things I want to get when I get my first paycheck. Maybe a good ol’ movie is a good start.

From the ever so handy thesaurus.com:

Main entry: tired
Part of speech: adjective
Synonyms: allin, all in,beat, bored, bushed, dead, debilitated, depleted, drained, effete, enervated, exasperated, exhausted, fatigued, flagging, jaded, languid, lazy, lethargic, overextended, pooped, prostrate, run-down, sleepy, somnolent, soporific, spent, tuckered, tuckered out, unrested, wearied, weary

I am doing closing tomorrow at Starbucks. I just wish I had energy to look forward to it. It’s probably my last shift.

I was staring at triangles and shades of gray the whole day, it was extremely un-un-un-un-un-unfun.

I was about to type an password-protected entry about work but I am too tired for that after telling the whole drama to my sister just now. Why password-protected? Cos with technology nowadays, it easy for anyone (that means my boss) to track me down so you know play safe.

I always think it’s silly to blog and then password protect it, I mean blogging means you want the everyone to read it right? Now I understand, yes you want everyone to read it, except your superiors. So yes when I do have password-protected entries, email or sms me for the password. For my one royal and maybe only reader, Audrey, I will actually email you the password myself.

As usual, I don’t really realise the week passing by because I am so tired about work, I eat dinner half asleep. I am still getting used to the whole work cycle.

Work had been smooth sailing so far till today. No, don’t worry, I didn’t get scolded or fired. Just..how to I put it..was reminded today real working life is tough and gets pretty lonely. Everyone has to be on their guards which to think about it, is pretty sad..no one to really trust or befriend with. I think I blame Starbucks for making work so fun..and that was my first job so I am rather taking quite a while to adjust to a brand new environment.

Like every new beginning and fresh starts, there’s always a lot to think about.

I added Twitter Updates if you noticed. Since I can’t blog at work or I don’t want to excess my blog from work (yes the whole tracking down thing even though I already accessed my blog from work before), little updates will keep my need to rant fulfilled.

As I had nothing much to do this afternoon at work, I surfed around to rekindle my love for typography and found this site: ilovetypography.com. Beside it being an resourceful site about typography, I think it’s one of the most beautifully designed site I ever seen.

With more blogs getting nicer these days, I am quite tempted to work on a new theme but that will take ages.

Lastly, colourlovers.com has all the colour palettes to inspire when starting on a new art project/illustrations/web design. Or you just wish to look at pretty colours, highly reccommended as well.

I am so sleepy, it’s only 11.30pm. And I smelled curry from my window or maybe I mixed that up with smelly feet.

As saying goes, nothing is happier to sleep in on Saturdays.

Yes, I survived the first week of work and, finally sleep in! It was not that bad the waking up part, just more of when I was not given assignments to do and there’s no internet on my computer..those periods, I can barely keep my eyes open. I drink lots and lots of water and goes to the toilet way too often to keep myself awake.

But fear not, the lack of assignments wouldn’t be happening too much anymore because…I am officially hired!

Yes, the boss confirmed me yesterday. Actually the creative/art director spoke to me after lunch. He wrote down the figures (pay) on paper and asked if I am OK with it. I was shocked (and not in the good way), it was a very, very, very low pay..nothing like what the boss and I talked about earlier. If…if, I interpreted it correctly, it might go up after the probation period which God knows when..3 months or 6 months or NEVER. Notice the bold ‘if’. But I took the offer, at least I have a job, and it’s a first job so..well, I will just take it. My sister and mother was saying to just take it..at least I can find a job. And my mother told me over the phone about how people in Italy or Germany are queuing up to look for jobs..and of cos did all the motherly talk and lecturing.

So, that’s it..a first full-time real job. I am not really looking forward to it as much as I hope. There are days during the past week I dread sitting in front of the computer so much and can’t wait for 6.30pm. I do a little countdown every 5 minutes. It’s nothing like Starbucks, no where close to as fun…or if fun is ever a word to be used for a career/job. I already got my first assignment yesterday.

My sister always tells me how she wish to just quit her job and join Starbucks again. I always sympethise with her but I think I am finally getting it.

I am full of complains right? It’s only the first week!

When I was about to graduate from polytechnic, all the fears of a working life..now I am living it. No escape.

I am going to go out later, enjoy my well-deserved weekend. It’s the last weekend of this sort, if you get what I mean.

And oh, I watched ‘Eagle Eye’ yesterday! It’s a good movie, keep you very entertained every moment of it. Seem a little unreal that degree of cyber-terrorism but come to think of it, in no time, it can become real. And Shia LaBeouf is sooooo cute and charming! 

My boss at the new job has yet to call me. Panic, panicking..I have all these thoughts like “What if he got someone else?” or “What if he totally forgotten about me?”. Maybe he will call me tomorrow.

I have been reading my new book - “The Year of Living Bibically”. There’s this part about anger, and how the author was talking about his anger management. He mentioned he is not a person that rise his voice but will gather all these little anger bits and then mountain them into bitterness. The way he wrote them was so child-like. Child-like not saying it’s childish (ok if you break the word down)..but more like the little kid living in all of us.

I was very much reminded of myself when I read that.

See my level of energy is extremely little/limited. Given that I have been lack of sleep for 3 days, I don’t eat much, I don’t eat meat and making coffee the whole day, I am extremely sleepy and tired by night time. But with every last bit of energy out of my sleepiness and staring at the street lamps, I thought about my much often child-like bitterness.

I think I do like the author, tend to mount up little bitter incidents, curse and swear and then go to a corner and sulk. And often, not to the benefit of myself because I just end up being more annoyed and irritated with myself. I have became quite judgmental of people these couple of years. However, I can be quick to judge and talk about it but never fail to then think about what I said and then give that someone a second chance in my head.

And again, it’s really working in Starbucks that make me think about and realise all these things.

I tend to write long sentences.

I am getting sleepy again. Some reading then off to sleep.

And thanks Song for the elephants! :)