I went clubbing yesterday, it was Boys Noize playing. They were really awesome. It was a pity though, I didn’t spent much time on the dance floor with the whole gang of TP boyz and girlz. It is not that I didn’t want to..it was too packed to squeeze in and not forgotting my unfortunate harrassment! Yes I was harrassed, let’s just say I was groped! Damn you drunk assholes.

It was really good though, too see everyone from school..just like good old days, wished I spent more time with them last night really.

And I had Joan with me! Even though we didn’t spent much time on the dance floor, we spent much quality time together, catching up and drink other people’s beer. HAHA! We found two seats so we sat down and there were two drinks in front of us. They looked untouched althought not cold anymore. And after a while when no one came to claim the drink, we decided it would be ours..why not? Free drinks! We smelled the drink, know it’s beers, toasted and gulped it down.

It’s been a while since I clubbed, kind of somewhat relunctant to go actually but I finally did yesterday and I realised something. I think I really I grew out of the whole clubbing period. I still love the music nevertheless but the best time last night was sitting down with Joan with beers in our hands and chatting. From where we were looking down at the mess of people (drunk, fall on each other, yelling but drunk mostly) down at the dance floor..I just don’t think I enjoy being there anymore like last time.

Work again tomorrow, how how how………………..exciting.

My next working is Wednesday. That would mean staying at home till Wednesday I think.

I don’t know..I used to go out everyday but somehow (or maybe I am subconsciously trying to get myself into that working lifestyle mode) the weekdays become stay home and only weekends are meant for going out.

Well, the job hunt hasn’t been going well. I am going to try looking in newspapers from tomorrow onwards.

Friday night was at Jon’s place for the VSC gathering which compromises of less than one quarter of the VSC ‘05 cohort as usual. Jon has the most amazing house I ever seen, it’s a real jungle, as it an actual jungle. I had never imagine a house could look like this..you will think you walked into a souvenir shop in Africa or something. It’s the coziest home I ever been to. I saw so many Martha Stewart house decorating tips happening there!

Today was television the whole day as usual. I was watching a Hong Kong TV series on cable. I just found out they have some free sample series to watch on cable. Woo! I managed to catch ‘Wall.E’ before it ends in cinema with JJ. Awww it’s so cuteee!

And go check out the new ipod nano, I am going to get it! Maybe next, next month since I am saving up for my next getaway trip.

I feel and suddenly felt now is a good time to be catching up with people.

Maybe to make up for the loss of not able to get Death Cab concert tickets, I got some fishes for myself including two Goldfishes.

I forgotten that my dad told me they eat a lot and shit a lot and sure they do, my water is already murky, I just got them a few hours ago.

I never liked Goldfishes, I think they are huge and scary looking but these mini (ok, they were mini in the shop because their tank is huge) ones are pretty irresistible. They look like they have huge asses.

And they just knocked down my dinosaur. See the little dinosaur sitting in the stones? Don’t ask why there’s a dinosaur and a dog (it’s behind the dino) in the water, they look home.

When I had my Puffer fishes, you almost have to press your face onto the tank to spot them, now you can see two gold bubble swimming about.

And I went back to TP with JJ to collect my work today. And yay, they were still there. I couldn’t find my Advanced Photo work in the DI lab so I went to the darkroom, I yanked my old locker open and it wasn’t there. I was about to leave when I passed the “bungelow” and yay there it was, tucked away in a secret corner. We used to hide all sorts of things in there.

Oh the memories, darkroom classes were the best times in TP.

Haven’t been blogging for a while, just had nothing on my mind recently and I don’t think it’s good because I think it’s the worst feeling to let time pass and not even remember what happened because nothing was worth remembering.

That aside, umm..what is worth blogging is that I will soon be a diploma holder. I passed my FYP, got C+. Initially I was hopping for a B then I dropped it to a D and then all I wanted was to pass, so I suppose a C+ will do fine for me, at least I am mid way to a B? And I recieved my “official” letter through the mail yesterday, congratulating me for completing 3 years of my studies in Temasek Polytechnic.

I don’t think my new full-time graphic design job is happening anymore. The boss suddenly stopped contacting me. And after sharing my very-interesting job story with people, they advise me not to take it so, I suppose I will let this opportunity pass and fly like the wind. So now it’s back to the original plan I guess, work in Starbucks till I get a job, and build my portfolio along the way. I see that it’s not exactly exciting but I can’t run from it.

I contridict myself, or I think I am lazy. I want to do something new but then I am lazy to move from this comfort zone.

Shut up, shut up, shut up………….

I have been working at Starbucks Wisma this two weeks till store reopens again after renovation. What else..? Wei and JJ went for their backpacking trip, they are probably in Malaysia or Thailand now. I wish I can join them man, but I don’t think my parents will allow though. They are gonna have so much fun…and they might also come back in a few pieces.

I am off to store chalet soon, been raining the whole day, finally see some bits of sunlight from..Malaysia.

I really hate the feeling there’s nothing on my mind. Just two things I wanna save up for: A DSLR and a tattoo on my back.

I obviously did not come out with this very beautiful template over here. I really haven’t been in the mood to get the new one out so, I suppose this is staying for a while. But it’s nice isn’t it? All orange and happy.

Have you ever got one of those feeling, like your head’s not right, you feel antsy, and then those ants crawled into your head/brain and started an ant army fire-mummy-power dance? You are in a daze, your eyeballs don’t exactly move and you feel nauseous?

(I was contemplating which sounds right: “have you ever have one of those feelings..” or “have you ever felt one of those feelings…” so I settled with the above which doesn’t exactly sound right either.)

That’s what I am feeling now.

I think it is the lack or too much sleep. Waking up early really screws up my brain, usually it dies for a few days before it pops (literally) back to life. I am doing morning shifts this week, good luck to me. Work has been fun, I am grumpy in the morning but after singing “I am a giant starfish!!” I will be alright, and when Rose sings my “Sally goes round the sky” song, I will be fine as well.

I had a weird dreams the other day, it was kind of freaky..I mean at least when I was dreaming it:

My family and I moved back to Hong Kong for good. And we live in this house that is really rectangular and along the walls, is made up of mirrors. It was the house we used to stay before we left. My sister claims whenever she sits on this couch in the living room, there will be this lady standing in the mirror in front of her. We didn’t believe her obviously. She says she still sees it now. So I decided to sit on the couch and stare at the mirror, there was nothing, then eventually, I made out a human-shaped figure in the mirror with a white flowy dress and long hair with bangs.

I freaked out obvious and think my eyes are playing tricks on me. I asked my parents to come see for themselves. So we all sat down and stared. The ghost was completely still like a picture and all of us saw it, then suddenly she looked up and walked into my room behind her. OMG man, I freaked out.

I can’t remember the rest. It was damn freaky in my dreams, it was night time with orange lights in the house.

One thing that really annoys me is the advertisement on Channel 5. The one with the Andrea woman (the ‘Deal or No Deal’ girl) sitting on a chair, in the middle of a fountain and just posing there with her legs stretched out and chins in her hands and camera moving from left to right. It is the one advertising for ‘fashion month’ for march? It annoys the hell out of me because it is one of those advertising that is seriously pointless and crappy. Because all it does is to have a pretty girl and then end of advertisement. True, you need beautiful people in advertisement to sell but that advertisement sells nothing except to tell you Andrea is pretty and have long legs and can balance herself on a chair and that mixed blood people are prettier than you.

Yes, it is just one of those things in life that ticks me off: shit advertising that drives a wrong message into someone’s head.

Now that everyone’s done with school, while I am kind of slacking away, everyone seem to be already looking for a job and some already found one. It got me panicking in my pants for a bit. First, I don’t have a portfolio ready, second, my work really sucks and thirdly, I am not ready for a working life yet.

Big unhappy face.

I am off to plan plans. I decided I need to do it today so I can place my head back on my body tomorrow morning. And btw, I need another job, I need money unlesssss YZ is giving me MORE and LONGER shifts. I want some freelance jobs.

I have been in school the past two days for the Diploma Show. It’s kinda saddening to be there actually. While everyone stands at their booth, proud of their work and giving out namecards and doing some social networking, I stand faraway from my booth. I found buddies though, Kim and Justin.

I don’t know, this was exactly what I was thinking about when I nearly gave up on FYP: I don’t wanna be at the Dip. Show and refuse to stand next to my own work. Almost everyone printed namecards and exchanged them, I did nothing. Maybe you can call everyone kaisu, but everyone does it so..maybe I am the one losing out. When I see people looking at my work, I just stone there and refuse to present my work..I don’t know, just wasn’t in the mood like everyone else. It’s gonna be over on Sat so I will bare with it.

I am working at 8am tomorrow and I got to wake up at 6am. I have been waking up at 3pm everyday so if you so happen to be reading this at 6am, please don’t be shy and give me a call, you don’t want me missing my work.

I need a plan, all this lazing around isn’t doing me good. There must be a plan. I hate the weather, it pours everyday.

Almost there, in less than 24 hours, this shitss is going to be over.
FOR REAL.
I waited 4 months for this day.

I didn’t feel the last few days going by.
rushing the spreads,
not talking to people,
running to and fro printing…

But what I can remember is a hole in my pocket, spent more than $200 on printing.
I would be happy with the money spent if the prints are nice but obviously no.

My hand is patchy-glossy.
See yesterday I was binding my book,
the instructions says to use gloves,
I couldn’t be bothered to find gloves so I pretended I have them on.
Throughout the night, I did work with my fingers stuck together, my arms and thighs sticky.
Now, it’s alright, just shiny.
The glue is meant for binding of metal, rocks, clay etc.
Yea, so I don’t see my hand returning to normal soon.

I am off to prepare for tomorrow’s submission.
And I will come home and give everyone a virtual kiss.

I was watching the Hong Kong news with my parents just now and this was reported:

A man working as a security guard in Guangzhou, China had $171 in his bank. He wanted to draw $100 from an ATM machine. He accidentally pressed an extra 0 and to his surprise, the ATM dispensed $1000. He decided to take advantage of the malfunction ATM and drew more than I think $18K. He managed to escape from the police for around a year or two.

In his count case, he said since he realised the bank’s security was not tight, he decided to draw all the money and protect it for the bank.

You see, he make a pretty good theft. He was able to steal from a bank without having to rob it. But, he definitely don’t make a very good lying theft.

See where greed takes you? He could have took the $1000 and be happy. Even if the bank tracks him down, he could find a way to blame the bank like lying he didn’t know he had only $171 or blame the bank for their lousy security system. He might even get that $1000 as compensation but noooo, there’s never enough.

This is where greed takes you people.

He is seriously such a dumb theft. If I was the newscaster I would be laughing at my script.

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I didn’t manage to print my work today because I overslept. My 1 hour nap became 7 hours.

Some of my friends managed to convinced Simple Digital (print shop) to open for us on Sunday though. It’s a sign. SIGN.

A sign I should go do my work now.