I need to get to sleep soon. Here’s some pictures from work:

I can’t work without little toys around, I can’t have a bare desk. So here’s two animals wooden pegs clipped to my keyboard wire from my sister, little family figurines my mother loves, cow note holder from Shups, treasure chest full of sweets and snacks from Audrey B. and that red thing is a digital clock that doesn’t get knock down (you know those with the weight thing at the bottom?) from father.

Little elephant toy from Song, it’s the only item that moves around the desk. Sometimes the baby figurine sits on the elephant.

These are all little toy keychains that is too nice to be used as a keychains and too wasted to be kept in my cupboard so it goes onto the wall. The little brown thing which is a bear is from Noel - Noel the SM at SB-CH (haha, secret code).

Cute and handy blue drawer that was thrown out by next door neighbour. It looks at like a big lego piece.

A sorta first ad I participate in that appeared on newspaper. ‘Participate’ because I didn’t do the whole ad, just the re-laying out bit - mostly the adding of my favourite ‘Georgia’ font! Always delighting to have your work published, no matter how little or much in this case.

Towards the end of the day at work, I got quite distracted. But I don’t know what is it so I decided to put it aside only to realise while walking to train station after work, it’s still there.

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I just deleted a whole chunk of paragraph, figured out it was too whiny even for myself to spell-check it.

But anyway, yes I was quite distracted today at work, partly because I am sick and drowsy throughout the whole day.

I wish I can write better to describe everything I feel about work. It’s just a whole new environment I am trying to get used to, or maybe even reluctant to get used to.

I think I never want to grow up.

On normal-er things, I got a new ipod! It’s the old 5th generation classic one actually. See, my ipod batteries were spoiled and it cost $117.70 to fix it. It took me a couple of months to save up/decided to fix it. I brought it down to Apple and to my surprise, they said they don’t fix it anymore but they will offer me a new one of exact same model at the same price of batteries repair. Lucky for me, I decided to wait much later to fix it so I can get a new one! I think it’s cos the new generation of nano just came out.

:( I am boring.

It’s Deevapali holday today, my first long weekend since I started working and yes indeed, it is awesome.

My blog was down for a couple of days because I didn’t pay my hosting fees. My host kept sending me email and the way they put it (I refuse to admit I am stupid or ignorant), it seem like they already automatically deducted it from my debit card.

Work on Friday at Starbucks was truely, truely exhausting. I never ever felt so tired with a constant migrate. I was mostly at the POS, and mostly feel like I am flowing in the air. I can barely keep my eyes open. But, it was still great working again..nothing beats working there.

I spent the last two days at home, I am sick..figured out I should stay at home and rest. I don’t think I want to fall asleep on my table tomorrow.

And I finally packed my room today. I don’t actually enjoy packing as much as everyone thinks but the feeling of a clean dust-free room gets me dancing inside. So unless I have a personal maid, I have to do the packing myself. Doesn’t everyone gets happier coming home to a neat room and sleeping on clean sheets?

I finally watch ‘Once‘ today, Wei lent the DVD to me. It was such a beautiful movie. It’s love story but yet not the typical lovey dovey romance movie. Like what it states, it’s a modern day musical. The story is so simple yet so genuine. The way it is filmed is so raw, nothing of that beautiful actors or people’s life nicely edited to portray a life you could never have? I don’t know if you get what I mean but you know how in film even if the characters are damn poor or struggling, movies are always in such a way it’s still more glamourous than you life you have? Well this film don’t. One of those film after you watch it, it feel real. Maybe because it’s shot in a documentary kind of style. And…such a perfect ending of the movie.

And of cos the soundtrack, the actors actually wrote those songs themselves. The songs reminds me of very Damien Rice and coincidentally, the story is based in Dublin, where Damien Rice is from.

I want to watch ‘Cashback’ next.

I have a whole list of things I want to get when I get my first paycheck. Maybe a good ol’ movie is a good start.

From the ever so handy thesaurus.com:

Main entry: tired
Part of speech: adjective
Synonyms: allin, all in,beat, bored, bushed, dead, debilitated, depleted, drained, effete, enervated, exasperated, exhausted, fatigued, flagging, jaded, languid, lazy, lethargic, overextended, pooped, prostrate, run-down, sleepy, somnolent, soporific, spent, tuckered, tuckered out, unrested, wearied, weary

I am doing closing tomorrow at Starbucks. I just wish I had energy to look forward to it. It’s probably my last shift.

I was staring at triangles and shades of gray the whole day, it was extremely un-un-un-un-un-unfun.

This is the third week and I am still not getting used to the work cycle. Don’t tell me it would last forever.

I am always so extremely tired, I don’t even look forward going home because..it takes a lot of energy squeezing on the train at rush hour and stoning and being in a daze does take up much energy too. At least to me…

Yesterday was the worst day at work so far. I was frustrated with everything, the work, the freaking grandma-had-finish-running-a-marathon slow computer..and hunger and whatever.

But more than ever, I was frustrated with myself. Frustrated because I can’t manage my emotions and feelings well. It was also partly due to PMS.

I had so much I wanted to blog about but my mind’s blanked out, I need to hit the sack. I slept at 2am yesterday.

I was about to type an password-protected entry about work but I am too tired for that after telling the whole drama to my sister just now. Why password-protected? Cos with technology nowadays, it easy for anyone (that means my boss) to track me down so you know play safe.

I always think it’s silly to blog and then password protect it, I mean blogging means you want the everyone to read it right? Now I understand, yes you want everyone to read it, except your superiors. So yes when I do have password-protected entries, email or sms me for the password. For my one royal and maybe only reader, Audrey, I will actually email you the password myself.

As usual, I don’t really realise the week passing by because I am so tired about work, I eat dinner half asleep. I am still getting used to the whole work cycle.

Work had been smooth sailing so far till today. No, don’t worry, I didn’t get scolded or fired. Just..how to I put it..was reminded today real working life is tough and gets pretty lonely. Everyone has to be on their guards which to think about it, is pretty sad..no one to really trust or befriend with. I think I blame Starbucks for making work so fun..and that was my first job so I am rather taking quite a while to adjust to a brand new environment.

Like every new beginning and fresh starts, there’s always a lot to think about.

I added Twitter Updates if you noticed. Since I can’t blog at work or I don’t want to excess my blog from work (yes the whole tracking down thing even though I already accessed my blog from work before), little updates will keep my need to rant fulfilled.

As I had nothing much to do this afternoon at work, I surfed around to rekindle my love for typography and found this site: ilovetypography.com. Beside it being an resourceful site about typography, I think it’s one of the most beautifully designed site I ever seen.

With more blogs getting nicer these days, I am quite tempted to work on a new theme but that will take ages.

Lastly, colourlovers.com has all the colour palettes to inspire when starting on a new art project/illustrations/web design. Or you just wish to look at pretty colours, highly reccommended as well.

I am so sleepy, it’s only 11.30pm. And I smelled curry from my window or maybe I mixed that up with smelly feet.

Second week into the job. It’s gets better, the waking up, the staring at the screens, the extremely slow computers..

I am quite settled in. I got my email working, my computer organised, stocked up on snacks in my new drawer (neighbour company threw it out, it’s a cute blue drawer), i got toys on my desk..

Talking about snacking, I can’t stop munching! I eat breakfast at home, when I reach the office I get hungry. Then lunch and soon an hour later, I get hungry. By the time I am heading home, I am starving again. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I filled up the mini treasure chest Audrey got for me with marshmellows and sweets (just like you Audrey, you are stuffed with sweetness! HAHA!).

So that’s why I have decided to come home everyday and do sit ups. It started today, 30 sit ups. Yes been a while since any form of exercise so it was a little tough on my stomach.

Majority of the days went by without much thinking, it isn’t such a dread anymore, now that I have actually assignments on hand. But of cos there are days I think about better days, days I stare into the screen and wish for more..just like everyone else.

TGIF (tomorrow!), now would be the point in life I say that.

I could barely keep my eyes open on the train, felt more like I was dreaming on the train on the way to work. I was walking to building from the train station when I heard a rooster make the noise a rooster make (ok, I have been thinking about this the whole day, what is that word for that? A duck quacks and a rooster ______?). Being extremely grumpy, I was thinking to myself what kind of ringtone is that? I look up and really saw a rooster by the tree! It was quite funny, I mean it’s quite rare there’s a rooster in the middle of a heartland/city.

I tend to walk with my head down to avoid any type of eye contact with strangers. Do you do that?

Work was not as bad as I thought. It’s all in my head I think. I suppose now I can relax more when I work. You know when you on a trial period and have many pairs of eyes watching you, you must always pretend to be hard at work? No looking blur or sleepy or ask stupid questions. I am officially hired so you know, not as tense even though my art/creative director still peeks over my shoulder time to time. And the fact I am given real editing and assignments to do instead of doing bits and pieces of leftovers, make me feel more purposeful.

Time passed quicker today, I had work to do for most part of the day.

I am determine not to only blog about work but it’s my second week so bare with me for a while more.

I brought my toys and cute little things to place on my table! I took a picture but lazy to post it up. I only need a pencil holder and clips on my desk…for now. And more toys of cos.

Only the beginning of the week, awesomeness!