I feel uneasy, even in my own home.

I hate the sounds of a plain afternoon, sounds of planes as if through a filter and cars traveling too slow. And the tuck in your heart to move faster. Nothing is too brilliant.

Everything is too still.

Remember the times when we cam whore? I am pleased to say I passed that stage, maybe just my feet have not.

So did anyone seen the lunar eclipse that happened just now? Well, I don’t think anyone in Singapore would cos it was cloudy and rainy, there was no moon…as in you can’t see the moon. The next one would happen in June of 2011. I should be able to live till then.

I think everything outside of planet earth and the milky way amaze everyone. Planet earth and everything on it is already a big mystery..and there are still other planets and stars above us..million of light years away. Not like miles away but light years..like Buzz Lightyears from Toy Stories. And I salute whoever created the devices to capture images of those stars and planets..how on earth do you capture an image that light years away? I still don’t get it.

Today I stayed at home and did my Publication work. I was actually very motivated to do it. I guess only when you realise this is the last few projects (I think last not counting FYP) you have before graduating, then you will really want to do it. OR, maybe I finally began to work.

I played good old Sims 2 today. I didn’t get any expansion pack. It’s already running quite slow on my PC. My female Sim is called Jude Wala Goldfinger. Haha. She is a blonde with short hair.

When I was Primary 1,
I would think the BCG jab would be so far away.

When I was Primary 1,
I would think PSLE would be so far away.

When I was Secondary 1,
I would think O’ levels is years away.

When I was in Poly year 1,
I would think SIP would be far away.

When I was in Poly year 2,
I would think FYP would be far away.

Now I am in Poly year 3, every year was “there is still several years” but I can safely say this is my last year to say that. It’s about the end of my 13 years of studies. I already went through all those “they are still far away” times.

FYP would be in a month’s time.

I would graduate in a few months time.

I would be a working adult in a few months time.

I am scared. I still feel like a kid stuck in school. Well, I want to be a kid stuck in school.

Well,

On a lighter note,

Dashboard Confessional is having a new album soon :)

Yak yak yak yak yak yak yak!

YAAAAK! WAAH WAAA YAK!

I am on medication.

The initial plan for today was actually to shoot yesterday (Thurs) night and then go to school to develop and print today since I don’t have morning class today. HOWEVER, it rained yesterday..poured..

So today, I slept in. I woke up early, at 9am (thanks to morning classes nowadays) and forced myself back to sleep. I woke up at 11am finally, ate and watched Star Movies. I caught “Never Been Kissed” and “Walk The Line”.

“Never Been Kissed” is cute. Very predictable of cos since it’s romantic comedy, a good light-hearted movie.”Walk The Line” was good. It’s really touching especially the part where Johnny Cash constantly have his brother and his death on his mind..constantly blaming himself for his death. The music was good and Joaquin Phoenix did an excellent job portraying Johnny Cash. I felt the movie could have explored more though..especially the relationship between June and Johnny.

I could sit watch Star Movies the whole day man.

I just came back from shooting not long ago with Wei and JJ. I hope it comes out good, I somehow feel the films are over exposed. I will head back to school tomorrow to develop.

I am coughing really, really badly. It has been 2 weeks plus? My head goes through an earthquake everytime I cough. I go into fits of cough.

Ok goodbye, I shall go do some Publication work now.

There was a period when I was lower secondary, I listen to Chinese songs. I was into Chinese pop. Well those days are long gone..I deleted all my C.pop songs. BUT, I still listen to Jay Chou. He is the only Chinese musician I listen to. His songs are nice and damn sad and sooooo romantic man. We all need to get back to our roots once in a while (so Kim, I got to see some Thai songs on your laptop) So these few days I had a suddenly urge to listen to his songs. I used to have all his album, I deleted all of the old albums..they are the best man..now I need to source for them again.

Ok Jay Chou aside, I have been busy with Advanced photos and busy being tired. I can’t really recall what I have been doing the last couple of days that I haven’t blog except shooting, printing and sleeping and eating.

On Sat, after my work at 1am, Andrew, Justin, Denice and I went West Coast Park to shoot. We were all sleepy if not sick. The shoot was ok. We ended our morning at 6am plus and eating breakfast at Macs. And we created an environmental Spongebob. Complete with nose, shirt, collar, tie and shoes and knee caps!

We even made a hook on top, I think it is still hanging in Andrew’s car now.

I shot 2 frames at West Coast Park, each an hour exposure. So we slept (and actually overslept) during the exposing time. To cut the long story, I lost one of the frame. I thought that filmholder’s film inside was the ones I wanted to throw away..so while talking, I opened the wrong one in the light :(The other one was good, I printed it already. I got 2 prints down, 3 more to go.

Ok this is all I have to blog about. Really, I have been so tired recently, everyday seem easily forgotten by the end of the night. I started my Publication Design subject already. Not good..alot of work.

I am off to sleep. My temp layout is going to stay put for at least a month more. Mr Tooth gets to meet more friends then.

Do you ever feel so damn stupid that you want to laugh at yourself? Like not cos some guy cheated on you but like you feel stupid (and no one else knows or was watching) you just want to laugh at yourself?

Yes, it happened today or in fact just happened.

I wanted to wake up early to go shoot today. I woke up early, had breakfast..slack alittle and watched anime (yea I used to stereotype too but it’s really quite addictive). And finally, at 12.30pm, I was ready to get my ass off my white computer chair and head out.

Somehow I was excited. I am never really excited to shoot for this class. Firstly, it’s physically tiring..with the heavy equipments and cycling up and down slopes in the hot sun. Also, you get so many people staring at you. But most importantly, it can be very disappointing because if you can’t get the lighting (zones) right, then you can’t shoot. I can spent the whole day outside and come back with nothing. And when you develop the film, the picture might not even be nic.

The other day, I got a sunburn from shooting. So today, I feel smart so I put on tanning oil to prevent the burn and also, get a nice tan! Like killing two birds with one stone.

I cycled out, starting metering and then I turned around and saw a big BIG black cloud. Passing rain cloud I told myself..passing just mega huge..like 5 soccer field that’s all. I was still determine to shoot. Maybe I can do a quick shoot, no wait..it is indeed a passing rain cloud…I shall wait.

SO I waited for 10 minutes, the cloud got closer but no rain..so I shall wait somemore then I saw a few tiny drops. It’s fine I told myself.

Then it got heavier.
Then I decided I shall cycle back to my void deck to wait awhile.
THEN, it poured.
Then I got drenched in the rain.

Ok that’s my stupid story. I think I just feel stupid putting on tanning oil (and even brought the bottle out) and not getting a tan but got my oil washed off instead.

HAHAHAHA. Goodbye.

I am blogging before I head to bed.

Today was a bad day. I had to go to school to collect the light meter and then coming back to shoot. I was damn tired and the lighting wasn’t right for my shoot. Then I started feeling very nausea.

I am damn stressed out with this subject, I can’t seem to get everything together. I cycled to the Sengkang River (the one all the way inside the forest) and sat there and stone. I talked to God, complaining. I just sat there, it felt nice..the sun was setting, river had funny fishes and birds in it.

Then I went home and the nausea problem came back..I was feeling terrible, I couldn’t throw up and my tummy had thousands of mini men doing somersaults inside. I can only think of the Carbonara I ate in school that could have caused it. I ate 3 prawns, 2 curls (?) of sotong and one tiny stalk of asparagus for dinner and went to sleep.

I did my ComDA work just now. I can’t wait for this block to be over. I am going to bed now. I need a holiday. Why am I complaining so much? I hate being constantly tired..I am always tired but this month has been more than my normal tiredness. Like a kind of tiredness you can never get out of.

Ok bye, I can see your very bored eyes staring at me.