I am typing this from my desktop, haven’t touched my desktop in a while cos I have been using my laptop. I like things in one place..all neat and tidy you know. And my desktop Windows is pirated so the ungenuine-window-version-star-icon keeps popping and I don’t like it.

Anyway, as I said before, I chose to do illustration for my portfolio instead of photography cos I am still unsure of what I want? As I am two weeks into working on my illustration portfolio, it dawns on me this is probably not what I want. I don’t know..I have been working on my laptop the whole day and realised..shit, I can’t do this my whole life. It’s boring if my whole life is staring at the screen and working on Illustrator and trying to squeeze ideas out of my sleepy brain.

I still have sometime to think about what I want till my SIP (intership) early next year. But I will continue with my Illustrator portfolio for now for P2..it’s too late to change. Maybe it’s the fact that I can’t draw (like freehand drawing) that I can’t express what I want as well as others can. It’s much easier if you can draw and scan in your illustration and vector them but I can’t draw so that sucks.

Well, I can always practise my drawing and stuff but lack of time and motivation is always a big problem. I never ever did a piece of illustration that I totally love and proud of myself. I just get sick of them halfway into it..and that’s sad.

Really, I am sad, everyone else in my school is better than me. I know I know..everyone will say no you are not and stuff but that’s what I feel. Yeah..the low self-esteem thing.

I don’t like making decisions, big or small. I think I said this before.

Anyway, I fell sick yesterday night. I seldom fall sick..only once a year but recently, I am often sick..like fever all. It sucks. I need to eat..like real food.

Ok bye, back to work. Deadlines this week, I haven’t done much. Shit.

I am tired. I am always tired. Everyone at Starbucks can predict me cos I only seem to have 2 things to say. I am tired or I am hungry. Really..I am always tired. It started ever since I started working I think. I think it’s a good way to loose weight.

On Sat, I did opening. As I was walking out of Starbucks after work, I met Kim and Andrew. They were about to visit me. Haha, they missed their free coffee. We went Isetan to get my Prepress box for my assignment then we went Paragon’s BakersInc to have breakfast/lunch/food. Then I went church and went home.

Sunday was the killer. I switched shift with Joshua. He’s a full-timer so it’s a 9 hour shift. I worked from 10am-7.30pm. On the way to work, I got a call from Naz, asking me to go down to Paragon to get juices and sugar syrup. It was damn heavy and it didn’t help it was raining and town was crowded on a Sunday morning. It’s a long walk..long when you are carrying a few kilograms of stuff. My main position was bar so I was at the bar the whole entire day. It was extremely busy somehow in the afternoon. I was doing bar solo for a few hours. It was really damn tiring man..then the crowd died down after like an hour, it came back..YZ (boss) came and did bar with me. When I started putting ice into Mocha without milk, I told her I seriously need a break.

I have a problem with spelling ‘put’ sometimes, do you?

Anyway, today was mid shift. Mondays are always quiet so it’s not as tiring. The bag that I always use for work smells like coffee now cos I put my work clothes inside. It doesn’t smell bad so no worries. I have my Moonflower body mist in my locker at work cos I don’t want to smell like a walking cup of coffee on the bus.

I have this HUGE pile of washed clothes on my bed. I transfer them to the chair I am sitting on when I sleep and back to the bed when I need to sit on it. I just refuse to pack them into my closet. I think I will when my whole closet is empty.

Ok that’s about all I wanna say for today. Goodnight people with eyes to read. OH, and how can I forget? I was on bus 163 today at when I looked out of the window, I thought I saw a dog (no big deal) but I looked again and realised it was a monkey! It’s a medium-size (?) monkey.

Oh and my boss (YZ) today told me I am in the higher range in term of sales. Like my sales are consistent and to put in it in simple terms, I made more money. HA, it think it’s my charm. Oh, she said she wanna promote me and start my learning coach training in September. COOOOOOOL.

Bye, really.

I really have nothing much to type about but I would like to announce that Pluto is not a planet anymore!! Read it here. I am quite lazy to read everything but WHY?! Pluto has the cutest name. I am always amazed by space stuff. Something out of planet Earth. Isn’t it amazing what’s out there..somewhere probably most of us in our lifetime won’t get to go? How the hell we human get to find out the other planets and those black holes that I still got no idea what they are…oh, and those time traveling stories. So why did God create outer space and the other planets?

I stayed in school to do my work with Jon today. Woooohoooo, I got a poster done! It looks pretty cute, let’s hope everything else looks good.

A ex-student and an undergrad at NYU came to gave a talk about scholarships today and she got the scholarship to study at NYU. How cool is that right? KFkdjfkdfkdjf. I really wanna go try for a scholarship. I am quite determined.

My hand is dry and peeling..shit.

Basically, everyday will be pretty much the same for this month: School at 12 till 2 plus, lunch, home to do work. Weekends: WORK. I really need to start using my brain again..to do designing work after a long while of photography.

OH, I remembered what I wanna blog about already. I bought a shirt from Threadless! :) I bought it at the $10 sale last week. Everything, the shipping and all costed US$16.50. I don’t know why the shipping is only $6.50 but ya..yay!

Do you have those emo/punk/act emo friends that goes “ewwww..pink, don’t touch me!” when you wear a pink top? I do. There was this once 3 of us were taking a pic and both of us beside her was wearing pink. She was like “OH MY GOD, PINK?! EWWW, don’t touch me!” Like what the hell right? You won’t die from seeing or touching pink. That’s just damn childish. It’s like the stereotyping of bimbos but the opposite.

Anyone agrees Ashton Kutcher is very hot?

I do. I just don’t under why he has to marry a women old enough to be his mother. His wife’s kids are old enough to date him. His wife’s ex-husband is old enough to be his dad. WHY? I think he’s one of the hottest and cutest man on earth. I got no idea why I am blogging about him but yes, he is hot but a little too cocky.I really got nothing else to blog about. Goodbye.

Do you like flowers? I do. I think I am making a new layout soon, something simple to last longerr. I love this one but everyone needs changes like how babies need their diapers changed.

Today is the start of a new block means new subjects. My subjects this month are P2 and Prepress Technology. It is definately not as stressful and time-consuming as Product Photography. I really wanna concentrate on my Project 2..I was doing last minute work for my Project 1 so it turned out like shit.

Anyway, below is my Product Photography final shoots. I couldn’t scan the film in cos normal scanner can’t do the job so these are the polaroids of them. Just imagine them bigger and nicer.

Work and everything was the same. Oh I watched Hard Candy the other day. I really didn’t want to watch it cos I heard it’s boring but Nick insisted so fineeeee. Me, Justin and Nick watched it. I wouldn’t say it nice, but it’s not bad either. It’s one of those movies that makes you think and makes you stone after that. The cinematography is good though, the angles and composition and stuff.I had so much on my mind to blog but I can’t remember anything now and I hate that. I will write in when I remember them.

I am home early today, it’s like 4.39pm now. I never been home early for a while already. I came home early to do my P2. Blah, I know my entry is boring.

Yay, I am unoffically done with my 3 Product Photography shoot. I am reshooting my second shot though. Chee Yong (my lecturer) likes them except the 2nd one so I am reshooting. It is not easy for my lecturer to like my work so YAY! Product Photography is tough man..cos we work in a group so if someone screws up her/his shoot, we affect everyone and the other groups in the room. It’s just been a tough month with everyone screaming and pissed with each other.

I am in school now, done with my shoot like 2 hours ago. Kim is shooting now. I am staying till late tonight, to help the others complete their shoot. Brought my laptop along so I can do my P2 work. Gooood, now I can concentrate on my P2.

Nothing much happened recently just spending lots of money of photography films and polaroids. Like hundreds of dollars one trip down, you know how heart pain is that?

Cute guy is another reason why I like my classs. He is in the next class actually. He is reaaaally cute. Haha. I don’t really go round say someone is cute sooo. He IS cute.

And I broke record today! I completed a shot within like 4 hours and used only like 5 polaroids. Of cos that’s with my lectuer and Justinman’s help.

Two shoots down, one more to go.

Blah, I don’t think we can finish on time and I am using too much polaroid.

Over a $100 spent so far on Product Photography, who wanna donate?

I was suppose to wake up at 5.45am to go to work but I woke up at 7.15am instead. I didn’t even remember the alarm ringin. The moment I open my eyes, the first that came to my mind: “Shit, I am laaaaate”. COS, if I am on time, the sun shouldn’t be up at 5.45am. Store called the moment I woke up. Luckily it was Naz, not Darren..I don’t like Darren. So I had to rushed down in a cab. The cab fare was $9.60. That’s more than 2 hours worth of pay. AND I got no idea why, but my till was short of $2.50, so I had to pay. That’s more than an hour’s pay being cut off. WHHHHHY?!

Oh, and yesterday, my manager came late to open the store. She came at 8am, we are suppose to start opening at 6.45 so we can open at 7.30am. There was a small crowd of customers when we open so we had to do our drinks and take orders when we were still in slippers with no aprons and stuff. It was quite funny.

AND, yesterday, this pretty famous Hong Kong actor came to my store. He is one of those old and respected actors, he did a few cameos in some Hollywood films.

After work today, I went shopping at Far East alone. I like shopping alone actually, no rush from anyone. Listen to my ipod so can’t hear all those sales women talking. Anyway, I bought a shirt. I only buy cheap and affordable stuff, well of cos they are nice toooo. I saw these 3 really really reaaaaaally cute and pretty and cheap shoes but they didn’t have my size! Akfdkfkdjfd. ARGGGGH, they were really nice..damn feet, I always have problems buying shoes. I saw many stuff I like too but of cooosss, money is always a problem. I might get more stuff after I get my Nine West pay.

OH, I just emailed MOM (Minstry of Manpower) and complained. Damn Nine West, it’s been 4 months and I still haven’t gotten my pay. Farina, who works at Nine West and my Starbucks, complained to MOM about Nine West recently. They deducted $400 from her pay because of missing stocks. What the fuck right? That’s like months of pay man..she got her money back. I hope Nine West gets fine.

Ok that’s my very boring weekend. The coming week is going to be busy cos of Product photography assignment deadline. I hope we can complete our shoots which I don’t think we can BUT we always make things work so yeah. I am hungry.

And I have decided to do graphics for my portfolio and I will go eat my cup noodle now. New season of ANTM tomorrow on TV! Yay.