So if my last entry was too boring and too long for you to read, in summary: I got the job at Starbucks Liat Towers.

There are like 8 football teams downstairs my house since morning, I don’t why the suddenly gush of scoccer playing. There are alot of people at the field, maybe some national teams. They have spilt the HUGE field (I think it’s like World Cup size field?) into two fields. They have been working on those fields forever. Seriously..it’s almost like half a year and there’s always some workers meddling..adding soil, planting grass, poking flags into the grass, taking down and putting up the nets. I think the government is too rich.

Ok, I am doing my UCulture (Understanding Expression of Culture) work now. The sub is so tough and boring!! ARGH..I thought it would be some watching videos and slacking sub but hell no..it’s tough. I hate the lecturer too, she’s so naggy and full of culture and I still think she is bias against many people. She openly told everyone she hates designers. So see? I have to do some reflection thing.

I still have my Figure Drawing to do. Procastinate.

I am making a new layout for this site..revamp the whole thing, make it nicer. I have been thinking of a portfolio site, don’t let my space go to waste. We will see. I still start tomorrow, when I am done with my work. I can go shop and watching TV all I want now that my hols has unoffically started.

I wanna get an Ipod. I think I will with my pay.

My blog is always dead why why why..I am always talking to myself. I haven’t been able to update much cos of school that almost killed me. I think everyone in darkroom lost weight..cos we don’t have time to eat/ too caught up with work. Well, I know I did..and now I have indigestion, have been getting abodmen pains and diarroea. Abodmen sounds seriously right? Haha..it’s actually just stomach pain but the doc says abodmen so fine.

I was suppose to hand in my Figure drawing final assignment yesterday but of cos..I was too tired. Half a night to finish a A1 drawing..definately not enough, at least I can’t. And I was too tired that night after finishing up my darkroom work. I went to take MC, instead of my usual headach, I decided to change it to diarroea which wasn’t really fake. At least I stayed in there like 8 minutes..rather than my headach excuse and I will be out of the cosultation room in 1 minute. Now my money is worth!

AND YES, my darkroom is finally over. It’s really been a hell of a month. It was fun in a way..I had a great class. No more breathing in chemicals, irritating year 1s/ gay and wierdo year 1s and our food contimiated. Seriously, there was this damn wierd year 1 boy. He talks to himself and asking himself questions out loud. He also publicly declare his love for his classmate and asked him “Stanley, can I touch your butt?” and “Stanley, can I kiss you on the lips?”. Stanley is popular with my class too. Haha..he left his pencil case behind so Jon went to steal all his pens and we found like a shaver and a wooden peck with those macaroni name thing and we broke his stuff. Hahaha..it was damn funny. We were wonder who Stanley was until one day we shouted across the darkroom: “Who is Stanley? We have your pencil case.”

OH, you know the Travis’ song “Why does it always rain on me?”, it totally related to me the other day. I was walking in the rain (with umbrella of cos) towards the main road to flag a cab to school. As you all know, Sengkang is a new estate..ok at least Fernvale is and all the trees are pretty tiny so you can’t get any shelter from them. So I was standing there and all the damn cabs refused to stop for me. It was pouring..even though I was carrying an umbrella, my legs were all wet. I looked up the sky, there was a dark rain cloud like 2000 times bigger than me. I looked 200m away, clear blue sky. The floor all dry. I mean, how lovely is that? It’s like 200m away. So finally when a cab was making a U-turn to pick me up..then 3 cabs was coming towards me. I wonder is it the rain that made me seem smaller and more invisible than I already am?

I went for my Starbucks interview yesterday. Wah..the journey there was killer man. I was in City Hall early so I decide to take a bus down to Orchard instead. Little did I know the stupid bus I took took me 1 hour 45 min to get to Orchard. City Hall and Orchard is just like 15 mins away. Apparently, the bus goes all the way to Queenstown/Lower Delta area and make a U-turn back. I was 35 mins late. I wanted to get down to get a cab but I might be short of money, and..there wasn’t any cab around. The trip in that bus was killer..seriously, I wanted to call the uncle to speed. Being late for an interview is the WORST thing ever.

The manager didn’t say anything, I hope she didn’t realised or something. I am 99% hired. She said she will enroll me in the June training class and get back to me tomorrow. It means a yes right? Yes. I will be training at Eastpoint Starbucks before going back to Liat Towers.

I have been dying to go back to Starbucks so now I finally am. I don’t know..mixed feelings? I hate that I have to go through the horrible training again..working with a different group of people. I love my friends at Campass Point. It’s kind of funny right..I went one whole big round and went back to Starbucks. If only I didn’t quit in Year 1. Well..

Ok, I need to go do my work but I am pretty sure I will go play games instead. I am playing Mystery Case Files: Prime Suspect. Very fun game.

Bye.

It’s only 12.20am but my head is going fucking mad..it’s hurts. I can’t see my com screen properly. I think I am too tired and I breathe in too much fixer. Just a few sentence:

I missed my last bus home and I had to take a cab. I have been taking cabs everyday. BOO.

OH, while shooting that other day, I saw a LIME GREEEN snake with BIG red eyes. It’s super lime green, greener than 10 green apples combined together. I wanted to catch it and take it home but there wasn’t any where I could put except my sling bag but after much thinking, I think not cos I don’t want a snake biting my ass.

My hols are almost here, I need it..madly mad mad need it.

OH, I was in the darkroom when a house no or something called. I thought it was the school cos it’s 67..something. It turns out to be Starbucks Liat Towers. They want me down for an interview this Friday. I was quite surprised..I thought they will never get back to me. Perfect timing, hols coming..next school block ends at 12pm everyday.

Ok that wasn’t a few sentence. Ok, I need to go bathe and seriously sleeeeeeeeeep. Bye.

Hi, I am finally updating. Rrrrr..I am so tired pyhsically and mentally. I practically live in the darkroom seriously. I am in the darkroom every single day. I was in school in the darkroom yesterday (Sat) from 9am to 9.45am. Real exciting stories..read on. I woke up this morning feeling more tired then before I slept. I just took a nap just now, like a 3 hours plus nap..I couldn’t wake up, my eyes couldn’t open. I even dreamt of my figure drawing homework…it’s really sad.

The new block teaching system is just fucking crazy. See, the old system, people have a whole semster (around half a year) to complete their darkroom project. With the new system, we have only a month to complete the whole module, we have class everyday. That’s just fucking crazy..how can people go shooting every single day then produce prints for consultation? Maybe just fucking maybe it’s possible (ok, not possible) if there are no annoying year 1s using and abusing the darkroom.

I shot 7 rolls. My lecturer, Chee Yong, hasn’t even approved majority of my shoots. I have around 7 or 8 more prints to go. For those who don’t know, a print can take very fast to do..maybe 15 minutes but also can take a whole 24 hours to do. We have 20 prints to do. You definately need more then 15 to do a perfect which means everyone’s print are pretty lousy cos of the time limit. I can’t even begin to tell you how fucking crazy darkroom is. You see your classmate every single day for like 12 hours or more. People get so stressed they cry or they go fucking crazy (yes like me). I will go ask everyone whether they are a lion. Ok, nevermind. There will be this period when people arrived, very happy to get an enlarger..then quiet cos everyone’s prints suck and then happy again cos they can do another print then everyone gets crazy cos we breathe in too much fixer (a strong smelling chemical). It’s stressful yet it’s amazing how we bond and helped we other out cos we really no got no else except each other.

Ok, I will begin my very exciting story now. We requested the school to extend the darkroom hours for the week so on Sat, it’s extended to 9pm. Well obviously it not enough..we don’t even mind staying overnight and days and days to complete the prints. The security guard will chase us out if we stayed on..so there’s only one thing we can do: hide. Well, hiding is super common in design school..people hide in cupboards all to stay over night in school. At around 9pm, we cleared our bags and mess outside. Yuxian and Evonne will pretend to be packing up and leaving (there’s 9 of us btw) while the rest of us hid in the very dark darkroom. Sometimes he will on the lights so we hid in this cubical with a door. Haha..it was damn funny 7 of us in this smaller than a public toilet cubical. Pack pack halfway, we heard footsteps so me and Kim ran in (two parts to the darkroom, a part with light and one without) to tell the others to hide. We all disappeared into the cubical within like 5s. He came in..talking to Yuxian and Evonne. Then it was slient, he knew some of us were hiding so he sat outside for like 8 minutes so we were dying inside the cubical (air-con shut down by 8pm). Suddenly we came in, on the darkroom lights (cubicals has their own switches) and said “Those of you all hiding faster come out”. Hahaha..we refused and he pulled open the cubical door but Fiona refused to let go. He walked off, came back again and pulled..Fiona had to let go. Hahaha..all of faced the wall trying to hide our faces. The moment was damn funny. “Ok go get their matric card. Why you all want to play tricks?”

So he watched us pack up and went out of the darkroom. BUT, begin the desperate souls we were..we wanted to go back. We pretended to walk out of design school and then walked into Engineering school and hid for a while so we can go back later. Justin went out to check and suddenly ran back to tell us the same security guard was coming. HAHA, we all zoooomed off to the stairwell and ran down to the first floor. Justin just sat there.

“Why are you here? Where are your..how many..there are 8 of you all.”
“Huh? What are you talking about? I don’t know.”

The very smart security guard analyzed for a sec and realised that the stairwell was the only exit we could go so he went there and checked..by the time he walked out, we were already halfway towards the gate..pretending to walk out of school. We walked VERY slowly..hopefully he will go away but he said “Out, OUT..side gate..faster, out.”

Haha..that’s the end of our story..at least we tried to go back. It was damn funny ah..we were perspiring like mad dogs and stink from the chemicals but it was all worth it. We wanted to sneak back in today but Shalyn went back to check..they manually locked it.

Ok, I hope my entry wasn’t too long for you and hope it was interesting. I still have my Figure drawings to do and CDS sub to think about. So bye. And I have very creepy darkroom ghost stories, come ask me. Darkroom (dark, red lights) always have some creepy stuff so yeah.

P.S: I am fucking asking this again. Stef, what’s your blog address?

My uncle in China just passed away. My dad doesn’t show it but I know he’s very sad. He misses his family, he loves his family and he’s very close to my uncle.

That day on the way to Yishun with him, I was telling his about my photography subjects. As I am doing black and white photos now, he told me about how my uncle loves photography too. When he was young, he will save up to buy chemicals and turned their room into a darkroom. He made his own enlarger. My dad told us how fancinated he was looking at my uncle developing photos. I could hear the excitement in my dad’s voice until when he said it’s just blink of the eye that 50 over years passed. I could just see the sadness in his eyes.

It’s just painful for me to see cos I can’t do anything. I can never do anything.

I was in the darkroom in school just now for 7 hours..developing and printing my photos. I am damn tired now. I still have shooting and drawing to do.

Today is Mothers’ Day. I didn’t get anything for my mother. I want to and not want to, I will not elaborate further.
(No, nothing happened.)

Yesterday I was fucking pissed. Nine West is pissing the fuck out of me. I will not go into details, everyone hates me now. I got Claudine into a middleman position and that’s not very nice. After service, me and Audrey went to eat at Sunshine Plaza and then ventured into the great unknown. It’s really sad, I am so drifted from church people. I just don’t know how to connect with them anymore..like no one gives a shit about you anymore. Yah.

Anyway, I think everyone wants me to be young forever..as if I don’t look young enough. Perryn got me a Play-doh (Doh-doh actually) set for my birthday! Haha. Audrey got me one last Christmas: Burger set. Per got me a Gardening set. Now I have SO much Play-doh to play with. I think my parents will be very disappointed when they open my door to find their 18 year old daughter still playing with Play-doh.

Father and me went to Yishun just now..just shop around. He wanted to get a pair of working shoes and vaccum cleaner. I got new contact lenses. My new lens are Bausch & Lomb, not sucky Acuve anymore. I got lots of solution too. AND, the shop blessed me with a total of 6 contact lens cases (it’s their free gift from the promotion).

I still have alot of shooting to do. Ok, I need to go out and watch my parents eat cos I ate alot of bread therefore I am full. My father says I needs to be outside to watch them eat.

OOHH. I want to show everyone my wonderful drawings:

You see not bad right, still can tell it’s a human all. I think if the model (draw some model off a mag) sees this, she will be damn sad she looks so ugly.

BUT, it’s a great improvement already. Just check out my Drawing Fundamental work (year 1). After alot of touch up from my friend (awesome drawer), it’s still horrible:

Today is Vesak Day holiday.

You know those people who can write very well, starts off a book or blog entry with wonderful description of the weather or the day? Well, my English sucks and I can’t so this is mine:

The weather was gloooomy, all foggy all over as if you are in Genting Highlands. Seriously, it’s all misty all over. There was a pinch of orange in the sky just now but it’s gone.

My mum is going back to HK next week, I didn’t know that until just now. She going back to Guangzhou too, I am calling her to get me perfume! I want Escada’s Pacific Paradise and Escada (the one I wanted to get while working at the airport). She is going back to Pulin (some place in China) too, where my grandparents lived before they went to HK. My uncle whom I never seen before (only when I was 2 so I can’t remember and it’s the place I got terrrrrrrrrrible diarroea and lose weight and before so small) lives there too. My grandmother went to HK with all her kids except her oldest son. My mum never seen him for like 16 years already. He doesn’t speak cantonese, just mandrain and teochew.

It’s kind of wierd isn’t it. We see our siblings everyday or if not..you know they are living, in Australia or Canada or the States. But my parents’ generation..your sibling can be like a complete stranger to you..like seperated at birth. Or like my dad..illegally went to HK from China and lived the communist periods of China. These are things that I can’t imagine cos it never happened to me. I think my generation is where the world just changes..technology bloomed, people get more powerful and richer, science are further ventured into.

Yes, intelluctual talk there.

I am going for a workshop thing tomorrow. It’s some workshop by a famous Japanese photographer and my darkroom lecturer is the translator..that’s why I can go for freeeeeee. I don’t even know whether I need to work tomorrow, but I don’t care. I am going back to school to develop my photos.
I am shooting later with Justin around my house. My room is in a mess now. I took out all my small toys from my display cupboard to shoot. If you can’t guess by now, my theme is “Small”. All my friends call me to shoot myself. Do you get why?

I am going to watch Toy Story on TV later. Oh, I redid my links already.

Hello..I have been really busy to update. I am tired. I have lots of work to do..Figure Drawing (which means drawing humans all) and lots of phototaking and darkroom work (where you wash your films and make black and white photos). Second week of lessons will be coming to end pretty soon which is tomorrow cos Friday is Vesak Day holiday.

My Figure Drawing lecturer, Vernon, is very gay. I don’t know if he is REALLY gay or he is just the fashion designer sissy sort. I mean, look at Christine Dior. Vernon is a Apparel Design teacher. Figure Drawing is a complusory sub. for Apparel students. He is very sissy ah..always goes “OH MY GOD!”. Ok, think how a girl does that then put it into a man. There you go..he studied fashion in Italy. Well, we can’t possibly not know that cos he boost about it EVERYDAY. He is super proud that he was once a student there..always telling us his experiences there. Sometimes, he will speak in Italian all and show off. It sound really nice but it would be perfect if a sexy Italian man speaks that way.

AND, my host just gave birth! Yes, my web host, Stephanie gave birth to her son on May 8th. She is just a an online friend but you know the anticipation is still there..the whole pregnancy process all..it’s exciting.

I don’t know why but I am tired..I can’t stop being tired. My Darkroom Processes sub. is giving me a nightmare. I changed my theme twice and I still can’t capture my theme. Arrgggh. It’s hard. It’s hard. It’s hard. I wasted like 4 rolls of film and time. AND I HAVE NO TIME TO WASTE. I am shooting everyday..non-stop.

I am still lazy to create the pages. I am too tired. Maybe I will come out with a simple layout. I have to redo the whole link page..that’s a alot of links to linkkkk.

I know my entry is boring so go..go make bubbles in your bathtube.

Stef: What’s your blog link? Huh..and why would you make me sad often?