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Yesterday I dreamt that I was pissed at Naz because she annoyed me about smoking, in my amusement park. Yes I have an amusement park with go-karts and rides but a lot of people couldn’t get in because there were too many people. And they became very angry people but they were in cartoons somehow, quite ugly cartoons actually.

Today was a very, very long day at work. I was extremely tired and sleepy. It felt like the longest 9 hours ever. Never had I felt 9 hours was so hard to go by. On the way home, mind half-shut, I have all these thoughts in my head about everything.

I have to admit, I am getting a little bored with work and it’s only the first week!

I was on the train when the thought strucked me: “Maybe this is the maximum life with a full-time job in an office can offer”.

Then I said to myself - “that can’t be true, and I won’t make it true”. I shall wait and see.

I am too tired, I need to sleep right, right now.

I was contemplating about the new domain names, even typing them out at the address bars in internet browsers to make sure they look nice but I need not worry about that anymore because…the invoice of my domain name came in yesterday. Apparently, I missed the expiry date…and it autocharged for another year.

WELL, anyway, today was my third day of work. First day was nervous of cos, new environment, new people. It’s alright by today, I have nice colleagues, I am the third female in the office, and youngest too. I get a little sleepy by the middle of the day but I suppose I will get used to it. It is just extremely quiet in the office, no one plays music and people rarely talk..rarely taking small breaks in between. I have been doing mostly layout works, follow up and touch ups on different projects.

The thing that bugged me most was what time I am suppose to turn up for work. See, my boss asked me to start work at 10am on my first day. So when he did not mention anything about time in and time out, I suppose to start at 10am everyday. I have been arriving around 9.45, 9.50am and I have noticed, everyone is already doing their work when I arrive. And the fact that I don’t see much people going in to their office at 10am in my buildings kind of made me nervous.

My creative/art director (sorry can’t remember which post he is) briefed me in the morning about some stuff and before we wrapped up, he asked me any questions. I wanted to ask him about what time I should turn up each morning but figured out it was too embarrassing to ask so I will just ask my female colleague (my first friend) later during lunch. And before we left the table, he whispered “and try to come before 9.30am”.

Well, good. That was quite embarrassing. My other collegue later told me over lunch that my boss asked where was I this morning before I arrived. And asked the other collegues why am I not told what time to come..the way she told me, it didn’t sound like any major upsetting of my boss, more like a casual conversation. I rarely see my boss because he’s always in his office.

Well yes, that’s the work story so far. I feel I have been performing alright, didn’t screw up anything that can cause me to be dropped from confirmation.

I just wish for a faster computer and a bigger screen. I shouldn’t be complain now actually.

People have been asking me how’s working life and do I feel like a real adult now. Well yes kind of. Looking at the daily AM and PM rush hour of people do makes me feel older.

Had dinner with Zain today! We had Canelé at Lido! We were so full, we were complaining how bloated and how we are ready to dash into the toilet once we get home.

Not going into details, I should go sleep now..feeling the tiredness of a full-time job already.

I have been waiting for my boss at the new job to call me. He said he will after the Hari Raya holiday (thursday) so when he haven’t by Friday, I was worried.

It gets worst when people start asking me when I am starting work and I have to say I don’t know, I don’t know if I am getting to job or not.

But finally, on a Sunday morning, he sms-ed he asking me to start tomorrow at 10am!

Quite a huge relief to finally hear from him. But at the same time, it also means no more slacking around, it’s real work..it may just be my last day of worry-free and carefree (sorta) day.

It’s exciting yet scary all together.

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It’s a lovely, lovely day, the sun is warm and of a pale yellow. I wish I was at the beach, which I was..but at night.

It’s was Jiajun’s birthday yesterday! Happy birthday JJ boy! Not that he will read my blog anyway. It was dinner at Outback and then Sentosa. We climbed into this locked up jetty area and the boys and some girls did an impromptu dipping. It was a funny sight, suddenly this bunch of people just rip their clothes off and jump into the water like there’s a fire at the jetty or something! Haha..

Well yesterday was fun, I hope tomorrow will be good too!

My boss at the new job has yet to call me. Panic, panicking..I have all these thoughts like “What if he got someone else?” or “What if he totally forgotten about me?”. Maybe he will call me tomorrow.

I have been reading my new book - “The Year of Living Bibically”. There’s this part about anger, and how the author was talking about his anger management. He mentioned he is not a person that rise his voice but will gather all these little anger bits and then mountain them into bitterness. The way he wrote them was so child-like. Child-like not saying it’s childish (ok if you break the word down)..but more like the little kid living in all of us.

I was very much reminded of myself when I read that.

See my level of energy is extremely little/limited. Given that I have been lack of sleep for 3 days, I don’t eat much, I don’t eat meat and making coffee the whole day, I am extremely sleepy and tired by night time. But with every last bit of energy out of my sleepiness and staring at the street lamps, I thought about my much often child-like bitterness.

I think I do like the author, tend to mount up little bitter incidents, curse and swear and then go to a corner and sulk. And often, not to the benefit of myself because I just end up being more annoyed and irritated with myself. I have became quite judgmental of people these couple of years. However, I can be quick to judge and talk about it but never fail to then think about what I said and then give that someone a second chance in my head.

And again, it’s really working in Starbucks that make me think about and realise all these things.

I tend to write long sentences.

I am getting sleepy again. Some reading then off to sleep.

And thanks Song for the elephants! :)

It’s drizzling outside, I have a cup of hot coffee in front of me. I need coffee when I am at home after lunch if not I will dive straight into bed.

So I went to my interview yesterday, the place was easy to find and I was early so I sat under a HDB block (which is across the road) to collect myself with a Malaysia cig first.

And…

It went well! I haven’t exactly gotten the job yet. I have to go on a one or two week trial period first before the boss sees I am suitable for this job. I think the main concern for the boss is speed. He said he liked my work but I might have taken weeks and months to do it which he can’t afford that in the real working world and he needs to know whether I can blend in and everything.

I don’t know when I am starting, I have to call the boss later to confirm.

I am so excited! But more scared at the same time, it’s a big company and I will really have to prove I am capable enough to be there. I am not saying what company it is..I mean if I do get rejected, that would be embarrassing.

I walked out of the building kind of surprised it went well, and that someone actually liked my portfolio. It was getting real nervous when I first arrived at the rows of very nice boutique design offices. And the boss seem quite intimidating at first but he’s actually very nice.

And that’s that for my job search and interview, hope everything goes well! Finally, after three interviews, I am getting closer!

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I went down to Kino and bought my Moleskin planner for next year and a new book called “The Year of Living Bibically“. No it’s not a religious book. I have been eyeing on that book when I came out in hard cover a few months back.

It’s about the author, A.J. Jacobs, documentation of his life for a year, living according to the way the Bible states it. He’s a not a Christian himself but he’s always amazed how influential the Bible is and why religion has become such a much talked about issue of the modern world. He followed the Bible as literal as possible including growing a Moses beard, not wearing clothes with mixed fabric and be fruitful and multiply (as the Bible states).

Initially I thought it was a book that poked fun at Christianity but at the end of his year he was very much amazed by this religion. I am just starting into the book and it’s getting real interesting and he’s a very witty writer, very, very entertaining.

It’s the eve of holidays, everyone’s off to enjoy. I am off to work soon which I don’t mind actually since it might be the last few shifts at Starbucks!

I watched the full F1 race on TV just now. I know nuts about F1 but as a typical Singaporean, don’t lose out. Since it’s a huge deal the first F1 night race is held in Singapore, I got to see what the huge fuss is about. The only exciting parts to me was the accidents.

I should sleep soon, I am waking up early for my interview at Redhill tomorrow. This is my third interview, of cos I hope I can a job finally but I don’t know, I am never really looking forward to post-interviews. I do hope I can getthis job though, as permanent staff or intern, it’s a very good company.

I have decided to get a Moleskin journal for next year. I am getting it tomorrow.

I took MC from work the other day and decided to do something, I have been wanting to draw and paint so yes I did.

I drew a couple of items and most was not impressive, my pear looks like..lines. Then I drew an apple as taught by the guidebook and here it is:

And my apple looked more like a pumpkin and well..er, it’s getting there. I drew an onion after that, it does look a decent onion, it was confirmed by my mother.

The other day went looking on the web for jobs again, I got really tired of it. I got so irritated with being so desperate yet I don’t want to give in to working in a print shop. I scrap the cover letter template I made. It became such a routine so I sent out a cover letter that reads:

I am a fresh graduate from Temasek Polytechnic Design School with a Diploma in Visual Communication. I saw your ad looking for a graphic designer with experience which I do not have but I would like to send in my CV and portfolio anyway to give it a shot because I don’t think I have anything to lose except you might never want to hire me in the future.

I really need a job and I am tired of writing unimpressive and boring cover letters. I do not have a winning portfolio and there are many many more talented people than me however, I am definitely one of the more hardworking, responsible, detailed  and willing to learn people around.

If you would not like to hire me to be a graphic designer in your company, I am still keen on being a personal assistant, coffee girl, cleaner or intern.

Attached is my portfolio and CV, I would be available for interview anytime.

I am really sorry if I wasted your time and energy reading this. I really sincerely apologise in advance.

Thank you!

I am sure I wasn’t thinking right. But that’s ok, it was fun.

And I got an interview..no, not from the above company I send the cover letter to, another company that I send a decent simple, cover letter to. I said I was keen on an intern position too so maybe it’s for an intern position.

My domain is expiring soon and I need a new name. Suggestions?

When I was doing my Drawing Founderation class, I I bought every type of drawing materials thinking it’s good investment. I got different types of pencils, poster colours, fabric paint, water colour, arcylic paint, gouche, chalk, characol, colour pencils, oil pastel and different types of papers in all different sizes..

It’s 3, almost 4 years later, most of them only been used once.

I am actually determine to learn drawing, I even have two books about drawing. I am determined yet I am lazy.I love drawing and I want to say I am good at it but I am not. I am learning drawing all over again like a non-drawing person.

So the other day after work, I suddenly feel like painting in watercolour. So I went to Bras Basah and bought a watercolour sketch book.

And I want to draw today.

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My sister took leave to study at home today. She left the dining table while I was watching ‘The Price Is Right’ on TV. After the show, I went to her room to look for her..not there, batheroom, no..parents’ room..no and thought she left the house without me knowing which is quite amazing.

But it turns out she fell asleep on my bed.

My sister sleeps there’s no tomorrow.

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The doctor says I am getting a fever soon. My temperature is 37.2 degrees.